The day i ran away

picture a morning forest still full with haze, every step forword brings unexpected surprice. your spine got stiff as the sounds of owls, wolfs, frogs and crickets from every coner all around you as if being watch and laughed at. then u feel so tired you can't walk anymore and without knowing where you are you lost all hope even survival itself. but after awhile the sun pulled the haze up and light your path but it was a road that you have no idea where it leads to.... but all could be done is to follow it

Thats how i feel every morning after every dream either a nightmare or fantasy i'll always wake up lost, wondering why am i here and what am i doing..... always hoping for a someone to pull me out of the haze and show me where my road leads to. someone that will be at the end of that road waiting for me.

mysterious dreams

for many months now every single day i go to bed i'm sure i had a dream... ain't good coz i always apear tired... and i am... dreaming is something magical sometimes, its the only time the imposible could happen... truth to be told i love sleeping! how ever theres once i had a weird dream... i was making out with this girl(ya ya making out nth else jus the lips dun think too far) she was my friend! we were jus friends but in that dream we were something more... worst part was i couldnt forget it n to make matters worst i had a crash on my friend in the dream >.<" ahhhhhh the horror couldn't look at her the same any more hahaha

the worst was the time i dreamt that i was having a party with my friends in a car park >.> soon later for some unknown reason i knew that my dad was out side the condo car park waiting for me. as i walk out to go home coz my day was very angry for no reason also hahaha i saw up at one of the condo's window a kid no older then 4 years old was hanging out of the window! i was like nuuuuuuu plz go back in.... next thing u know that boy fell~ suddenly time felt like it stoped as i could see every sec clearly of how his falling ... automatically i rush to catch him... when he came down to my level my finger tips touched his body n didn't manage to catch him my mind was going nuts knowning the out come as my eyes shut tight n my arms n shoulders kinda jumped as i heard the splashing sound the little kid made when he hit the road floor when i opened my eyes his head was dislocated n didn't know the danger the kid had a smile on his face! THATS WHEN I WOKE UP n shiver as i sms my friend in the dark coz all i wan is not to b alone that time =.="

all the weird dreams leat me tired n even GRAMPY sometimes can't even face my friends haha... not to mention it makes my nose hair n white hair grows faster it also comes with pimples not on the hair but on my face duh~ yah... thats all for now ^^ to who that might read this.. give me a hug when u see me unless ur a guy ... fat guy or....fat girl... u know wat dun hug me let me die in peace

if i could have a peny for everytime i regret doin something i would really need to find a place to keep all my pennies. i grew up hating this feeling of regret soo much that i push every nice thing that could happen to me away jus so i dun feel dissapointed is anything bad happens. i tried not to get involve in almost everything so much that i've even become alittle social outcast or i try so hard to fit in i make a fool of myself over jokes which only i think is funny, it was later on that i realize that ppl hav to get the joke too. i guess in a way i've turn to joking as something i do to mix around after all everybody could use a good laugh. trust me when i say>> "bad things happen to he who tries too hard" my mind become fix on thinking of jokes so much i couldn't b serious unless u poke me in the wrong places if u know wat i mean.

now lets see, i'm negative erm kinda anti social and not serious, very bad with words, makes jokes that ppl dun get.... so why is it that ppl dun like me again? to all my friends n every 1 that knows me, wanna tell u guys something which is "i'm still trying to be a better man!" now how that turns out will also depends on u guys ^^