A reason i've found

Off and on i acctually get emotional and sad which cause me to become kinda quiet. Ever meet some1 that could only do something if they have a reason or motive? sadly i'm one of them and the reason or motive i lack is in life. i hav no idea wat so ever why on earth i live, without this important answer in my life everything i do seems meaningless.

But i guess there is no meaning if i only live for myself, i find it a better reason to live for others. Not really a good thing for me but atleast maybe jus maybe i could give a reason for others.

Even so, i'm not doin too good myself hahaha too lazy to study or do anything that is beneficial to ME Buuuhuuuu =(

the will to go on

helo~~ long time since i wrote something huh... well some friends acctually read my post n hoped i'll write again, so i took sometime to do this =) todays topic~ famous yet challenging! whats life all about ;) now if ur religious most likely u aledi hav an answer that u could accept but reminding u some ppl are still not quite satisfied with the answer at hand. bet most of u guys watched matrix XD bullets flying n all that COMEE ONnn no way u could hav missed it, if u guys recall it was said in the first episode movie that if something real is something that u can see hear touch n smell then they r no more then impulses to ur brain.
not trying to b negative but history is only the way it is to us depending on how the writer wrote it, in other words whos to say the bible is real. super sorry haha but i'm like some of them out there which can't really belif wats not proven. so if not mistaken life to the bible is eternity if every1 had to die n not resurrected its kinda pointless >.> tell u the truth i wouldn't really wanna live forever wouldnt know wat to do =P anyways with this some ppl living their life hoping for the day of judgement or be good to go to heaven or die n live as human again or wat ever that u can think of... now imagin u dun hav any bible or elders to tell u wats life after death, then tell me why do we live. now now if u look at animals they live to multiply so that their kind dun dissapear hahaha but it would seem that thats their only goal in life, so are we the same? hehehe think about give commands mayb i'll post something again and btw i'm not religious i myself is a christian and i also quite belif in god =) besides somethings its better to believe then not to believe.... time to sleeppppppppp~!

what to do...

some times in life u gain enemies, some times in life u meet ppl that dislikes u for no reason. wat to doooooo.... well i could imagin how scarry tat is! i mean its like imagin ur badly scar-ed all over u look like ghost n no1 wans u around u hav no friends n its not ur foult ppl dun like u! bcoz of this i will not run from ppl like that i will b their friends! i must give them hope n b there for them coz its jus the rite thing to do.. but sometimes i meet some 1 that has a reason for why others might not like him/her i dunno rather to help or to stay away. in a way its totally non of my buisness i could really get in trouble if i give my oppinion, but then again if i don they won know how much they might b losing out mayb losing out on friends, trust within ppl or even love.its like two pool both with sharks, 1 pool is dirty but not deadly n another is clean(healthy). so question should i help the sharks in the dirty pool over to the clean pool but risk geting eatten or should i jus let it be... sometimes doin a good thing isn't right n some times doin the bad thing isn't wrong!