mysterious dreams

for many months now every single day i go to bed i'm sure i had a dream... ain't good coz i always apear tired... and i am... dreaming is something magical sometimes, its the only time the imposible could happen... truth to be told i love sleeping! how ever theres once i had a weird dream... i was making out with this girl(ya ya making out nth else jus the lips dun think too far) she was my friend! we were jus friends but in that dream we were something more... worst part was i couldnt forget it n to make matters worst i had a crash on my friend in the dream >.<" ahhhhhh the horror couldn't look at her the same any more hahaha

the worst was the time i dreamt that i was having a party with my friends in a car park >.> soon later for some unknown reason i knew that my dad was out side the condo car park waiting for me. as i walk out to go home coz my day was very angry for no reason also hahaha i saw up at one of the condo's window a kid no older then 4 years old was hanging out of the window! i was like nuuuuuuu plz go back in.... next thing u know that boy fell~ suddenly time felt like it stoped as i could see every sec clearly of how his falling ... automatically i rush to catch him... when he came down to my level my finger tips touched his body n didn't manage to catch him my mind was going nuts knowning the out come as my eyes shut tight n my arms n shoulders kinda jumped as i heard the splashing sound the little kid made when he hit the road floor when i opened my eyes his head was dislocated n didn't know the danger the kid had a smile on his face! THATS WHEN I WOKE UP n shiver as i sms my friend in the dark coz all i wan is not to b alone that time =.="

all the weird dreams leat me tired n even GRAMPY sometimes can't even face my friends haha... not to mention it makes my nose hair n white hair grows faster it also comes with pimples not on the hair but on my face duh~ yah... thats all for now ^^ to who that might read this.. give me a hug when u see me unless ur a guy ... fat guy or....fat girl... u know wat dun hug me let me die in peace

if i could have a peny for everytime i regret doin something i would really need to find a place to keep all my pennies. i grew up hating this feeling of regret soo much that i push every nice thing that could happen to me away jus so i dun feel dissapointed is anything bad happens. i tried not to get involve in almost everything so much that i've even become alittle social outcast or i try so hard to fit in i make a fool of myself over jokes which only i think is funny, it was later on that i realize that ppl hav to get the joke too. i guess in a way i've turn to joking as something i do to mix around after all everybody could use a good laugh. trust me when i say>> "bad things happen to he who tries too hard" my mind become fix on thinking of jokes so much i couldn't b serious unless u poke me in the wrong places if u know wat i mean.

now lets see, i'm negative erm kinda anti social and not serious, very bad with words, makes jokes that ppl dun get.... so why is it that ppl dun like me again? to all my friends n every 1 that knows me, wanna tell u guys something which is "i'm still trying to be a better man!" now how that turns out will also depends on u guys ^^

For now =)

this might b my last post for along time, basically i can't do this forever. i'm not much a sharing person but hey it was fun while it lasted. what could i say about ^^ hmmm so far i think less then 7 ppl acctualy know my blog exsisted, most guys won't bother to even look i mean come on guy see guys blog it wrong~! hahaha many comments n stuff i get mostly from girls thanks so much! tiffany my penang pal know u since hmmmm 5? 6 years ago? amazing we never meet but we r still great friends. wuei ging a girl that some how always manage to sit beside me in class for the pas few years well almost always. then theres keryi this girl is something special hard to say but every1 wanna b like her. regina, primary school friend wasn't as close to her then but i think we r geting somewhere now, still wish we can hang out more often and i hav to say u can really play a bluff game all the way~.~'. sarah old school mate fly to usa and never visit me, but still shes like a virtual friend online every lunch time n bed time. Jason Hew! cutest guy i know haha i hope being cute could win over girls coz if it does u'll hav a mob of girls aledi!jiayi and jialin old buddies, miss going to ur house every saturday n jus watch tv together haha. LekKA, my goodness u hav more in u then u think, if a guy like u hav problems geting girls ppl like me hav no hope at all hahaha super funny guy. weijun read read read study study read is tat all u do? even worked at MPH! u r soooooo going to get ur very own thinker statue. liping, so small so cute and so innocent i don't even dare for one second lay 1 finger on u haha but i wouldn't basically i can't think dirty with u around~. michelle choo, hmm very sry i can't make it the other day wen u asked me out but hey ur turning into a anime freak too yay our gang is geting big but thennn am i the only guy in the gang? hoaykeat, i know u dun mean bad n stuff but some1 tells me u weren't being very nice when u talk, i'm sure u didn't mean it so jus watch out wat u say that might hurt sensitive ppl, other then tat ur great too. anwar! him n jiayi were my best buds can't say the same now but he is one malay dude that i seriously like! come play more often yah?! ally, amazing girl can mix with almost any mob i know very nice and if it wasn't for her i would hav been really bored at genting that day she was the only 1 that company me all the way, n remember that time we cooked at eunice place haha that was fun thanks. chongpeng and sengyu a.k.a burger and hot dog to me haha always a pair 2 guys walking ard freaks me out!! but hey wat ever makes u happy =P shuan, now dun wanna b rude infront of all this ppl (ehem 1 or 2 ppl that acctaully reads this blog) but work on ur talking skills coz man i know u never meant to b bad but the way u talk kills and i mean tat in a bad way, hav to seriously change, if not u'll hav trouble even keeping the friends u aledi hav, ur a great guy thou remember dun swear! elaine, jingyan, carmen, shuyi, wanzhen,waiyee and all the chinese speaking friends! nice to hav u, i enjoy speaking chinese with u all if not for u guys i would hav seriously forgot how to speak chinese. sherman tan, his brain can really twist n turn very good at joking and his smart too! john, my age john haha i like ur house wei~ bathroom also got tree i envy that! n ur big tv oh my god! ur also a great guitar player i'll need free lesson from u too. huiyi , did any 1 tell u u walk like a guy? dun get me wrong i think its really cool so cool that i wanna walk like u hahaha hey dun stay up too late k? andrea, currently at aus i love the way u talk! its new n different hope it wouldn't change. mayjean, very pretty girl hor dun playplay shes nice also but can't help to feel that something is bothering her, a great friend althou different school but shes always around. yoongkhang and junhoh good luck in form 6 tell me how it turns out. chentseng i duno why but everytime i see u i feel that ur soo stress chil man, if i must i will personally unstress u hahaha that sounded like undress. denise, wao tall sweet and sexy hahaha hope u got the cubebox thinggy done by now, i think ur interesting coz u wish to learn about how others feel, that is something i dun really see often in a person. jiehan, i dunno i should ask u to eat more or stop eating coz ur really thin but u mustn't grow anymore! hmmm wonder how u look like if u happen to take drugs hohoho but still ur kind tall dude take care! kimberlee, met her at johns birthday party, first girl that was daring enuf to pull me out to dance, and also thanks for the invite to ur party too. Kong, you ar always wanna have fun dun even care wat will happen hahaha but ur need for trial really amaz me! Yue Chiang or siu kiong he's very friendly person even gay hug me a few times some how i dun mind HAHHAHAHA ehem but seriously this dude is not made for fighting he is 1 guy u can't stay mad at. Awwww i hope the ppl that i didn't mention wouldn't mind but i'm really bad in names so either i can't spell it or i can't remember it kekeke and too all the girls that i wasn't nice with or that i've hurted b4 hav a news for u... i'm hurting now too..... so lets call it even? thanks for everything every1!! i also like to thank my parents n my sister, oh and if i hav a wish yah yah world peace! KIT, TK, GL,HF, SM hmmmmm wonder whos dumb enuf to read the whole thing muwahahaha~