the things that matters the most

bet most of u heard of the phase "sometimes the things most dear to u is there right infront of u" in a way its true~ automaticaly if u hav something u treasure u would b facing it more often wouldn't u? but i did something pretty dumb, i found that thing yet i refuse to accept it. mayb thats the reason i dun hav a best friend,dun get me wrong every1 is a very good friend to me but no best...
it was soon i came to realize that i had been dissapointed way too many times, for instants of all the relationships i've been in never really worked out, when i was first introduce to online games i could see many scamers, many things i've tried doing didn't turn out the way it should, i've met ppl that couldn't careless n would put me in harms way to get wat they wan, also ppl that is so unreasonable and totaly hardheaded that i could drop dead jus by trying to get a simple fact into them. there is so many painful times which ultimately shaped my heart into wat it is now.
my heart is now something secluded, a wall around it was formed to protect myself from all this but at the sametime abandoning any hope of true happiness from ever entering. This is me.. a person that quits the moment something sounds too good to b true comes along....... what should i do....

Education VS Experince

Heres something to think about and also it would b helpful if u would leave a comment on this question ...eto.. ok the question is~! if ur a big boss who would u employ to work with u some1 thats very experince or some1 with a degree or PHD. would u want that person to b good at the job or smart for the job.

example any experince worker knows how things is done they could do it nicely n well for u. they could also do it faster n better.
a educated person however might know how things should b done but doing it is something else they might b slow n not done well, but any unexpected problems could b solved easily since they hav enuf wisdom to overcome it. however an experince worker might not know wat to do if something new comes a long.... so which is better?

few days ago, my sister and i wen out together... well acctually she had an interview and i'm suppose to b the good brother to keep her company n protect her hohoho~ >.<" anyways then i was thinking who would i employ n wat person would it b... and pop! this question came along. theres also street smart n books smart to think about but right now to me i think an experince worker is better coz i've witness some1 tat has no education but did a great job at my work place even thou his newer then me T.T" really made me look bad but his ways of words with the customer made him look like he knows wat his doing n he cannot possibly go wrong! amazing~ well of course his 10years older then me haha. tell me wat u think

The day i ran away

picture a morning forest still full with haze, every step forword brings unexpected surprice. your spine got stiff as the sounds of owls, wolfs, frogs and crickets from every coner all around you as if being watch and laughed at. then u feel so tired you can't walk anymore and without knowing where you are you lost all hope even survival itself. but after awhile the sun pulled the haze up and light your path but it was a road that you have no idea where it leads to.... but all could be done is to follow it

Thats how i feel every morning after every dream either a nightmare or fantasy i'll always wake up lost, wondering why am i here and what am i doing..... always hoping for a someone to pull me out of the haze and show me where my road leads to. someone that will be at the end of that road waiting for me.