the will to go on

helo~~ long time since i wrote something huh... well some friends acctually read my post n hoped i'll write again, so i took sometime to do this =) todays topic~ famous yet challenging! whats life all about ;) now if ur religious most likely u aledi hav an answer that u could accept but reminding u some ppl are still not quite satisfied with the answer at hand. bet most of u guys watched matrix XD bullets flying n all that COMEE ONnn no way u could hav missed it, if u guys recall it was said in the first episode movie that if something real is something that u can see hear touch n smell then they r no more then impulses to ur brain.
not trying to b negative but history is only the way it is to us depending on how the writer wrote it, in other words whos to say the bible is real. super sorry haha but i'm like some of them out there which can't really belif wats not proven. so if not mistaken life to the bible is eternity if every1 had to die n not resurrected its kinda pointless >.> tell u the truth i wouldn't really wanna live forever wouldnt know wat to do =P anyways with this some ppl living their life hoping for the day of judgement or be good to go to heaven or die n live as human again or wat ever that u can think of... now imagin u dun hav any bible or elders to tell u wats life after death, then tell me why do we live. now now if u look at animals they live to multiply so that their kind dun dissapear hahaha but it would seem that thats their only goal in life, so are we the same? hehehe think about give commands mayb i'll post something again and btw i'm not religious i myself is a christian and i also quite belif in god =) besides somethings its better to believe then not to believe.... time to sleeppppppppp~!

what to do...

some times in life u gain enemies, some times in life u meet ppl that dislikes u for no reason. wat to doooooo.... well i could imagin how scarry tat is! i mean its like imagin ur badly scar-ed all over u look like ghost n no1 wans u around u hav no friends n its not ur foult ppl dun like u! bcoz of this i will not run from ppl like that i will b their friends! i must give them hope n b there for them coz its jus the rite thing to do.. but sometimes i meet some 1 that has a reason for why others might not like him/her i dunno rather to help or to stay away. in a way its totally non of my buisness i could really get in trouble if i give my oppinion, but then again if i don they won know how much they might b losing out mayb losing out on friends, trust within ppl or even love.its like two pool both with sharks, 1 pool is dirty but not deadly n another is clean(healthy). so question should i help the sharks in the dirty pool over to the clean pool but risk geting eatten or should i jus let it be... sometimes doin a good thing isn't right n some times doin the bad thing isn't wrong!

the things that matters the most

bet most of u heard of the phase "sometimes the things most dear to u is there right infront of u" in a way its true~ automaticaly if u hav something u treasure u would b facing it more often wouldn't u? but i did something pretty dumb, i found that thing yet i refuse to accept it. mayb thats the reason i dun hav a best friend,dun get me wrong every1 is a very good friend to me but no best...
it was soon i came to realize that i had been dissapointed way too many times, for instants of all the relationships i've been in never really worked out, when i was first introduce to online games i could see many scamers, many things i've tried doing didn't turn out the way it should, i've met ppl that couldn't careless n would put me in harms way to get wat they wan, also ppl that is so unreasonable and totaly hardheaded that i could drop dead jus by trying to get a simple fact into them. there is so many painful times which ultimately shaped my heart into wat it is now.
my heart is now something secluded, a wall around it was formed to protect myself from all this but at the sametime abandoning any hope of true happiness from ever entering. This is me.. a person that quits the moment something sounds too good to b true comes along....... what should i do....