Blood still FreaKs me out

Today i wen for a blood donation, they hav a very catchy phrase that cought my attetion "a bag of full, truthly helpful" and i've always wanted to save the world i guess its 1 life at a time for now =)

even thou i'm a guy, that freakin niddle is still seem so freakin big to me! i dare not watch as the nurse STAB me! but the ppl there n atmosphere was great, wen u go in that hall, that bloody bloody hall, that scarry blooodie... i mean that wonderful holy hall u feel something wen u look at the ppl ard you, THAT THERE ARE STILL MANY KIND PPL ALIVE! thanks for the experince =D oh btw we get alot of free stuff n sign our names on this board to indicate our heroic efforts =P

I WAn To Stay NeAr the CoLlege T.T

traveling 3 hours a day every school day which is almost every day is very sickening. serious the first few weeks i could almost feel my self throwing up(vomit). but reality smack me hard on the butt telling me this is wat i hav to do this is LIFE! oh god~

lets play with a little mathe shall we :) 1 day 3 hours gone last sem was 6days a week that will b 18 hours gone. in a month that will be 72hours gone! means for every month i lose 3 days~! in a year i lose 36 days! so its as if i hav only 11 months in my year ~.~" but lucky this sem onli 5days aweek but it still sucks =/

Its not easy...

in college rite now at the moment i was voted to b my robotics group(11ppl) leader. kinda scarry considering there r elder ppl in my group its like u can't boss them around coz they will feel angry taking orders from some younger kid. i was hoping that by picking me as the leader they should believe in the decisions i make. but to b fair i let every 1 voice out oppinions. but sadly alot don't really care they dunno wats going on they dun bother to find out.

i dun like leading never did. coz first rule of leadership everything is my foult. again i'm not good with groups and i'm pretty bad comunicating so i'm jus starting to fit in. no 1 likes a bossy person which i need to b. i'm also living super far from college n every 1 else. the day i did came for class was the day they voted me leader =/ i didn't even know wat r we suppose to do T.T"

rite now there are idealist in my group which wan things their way and after reviewing i feel that theres parts which is going to b hard to do n will cause problems but it doesn't seem like they will take no for an answer. but there are some ppl there which r very kind n helpful thank god :) so far we only had to do a proposal, prototype, a rough sketch design. starting wen every 1 still don seem to care about it i had to do the proposal n design my self to hand in some did help but 80% of it i had to do by my self :(

some complication did occur aswell but hopefully its nth we can't handle jus hope for a little respact here n there. most helpful members in clude nick, alex, wan tong, jeff others plz show me wat u can do! oh btw we r building a simple robot

what happen the other day~

once again the week is ending and i'm out with friends~ well was going to b out with friendS but one of them couldn't make it n end up going out with jus a friend(female). after a night of chating while eating at a mamak place a few guys came by they are all my ex school mates and they all know my friend. i am never good in a group conversation but i tried to fit in haha didn't work ended up being quiet listening. so its geting late n me n my friend wanna go home edi and so did the group of guys.

one of them suggest we let him walk home n get his car n drive us back but actualy men my friend's house is of walking distance. i said i'll walk her back n if they meet us there they can send me back coz mayb walking might b faster. so it was me n her plus one of the guys which seemed to b interested in her, we walk down the dark road while chating then the guys with the car came by. instead of driving my friend back jus the other half the driver made a long round turning n said he wanna drop me off first. i was worried for my friend so i insisted that he drop her first.

in the car was me 3 other guys n her if i go down it would onli b 3 guys n her in a car. my friend she also said that she would like to go back first. but the guys n the driver did not listen they keep driving to the road directing to my house so i said once more to him to drop my friend first then he replied WHY? i told him in a joking way that i can't sleep if i dun see her off. then he say i dun wan u to sleep then he drove all the way to my house reached at my house i said i'm not geting off until u drive her back. i think my friend was also scared n she said nvm she'll walk then only the guy reacted n say fine n drove her back.

i'm friendly at times but can b scarry sometimes. coz the girl was there i tired to b calm with them, after she left i asked the driver why so degil? the guy didn't reply n jus drove me back. i said thanks n i left. the word got out to another friend she said that i was too protective and reminded me that i'm not her bf or anything then i felt as if i did something wrong. but my friend the girl in the car she sms me later saying thanks and ask me if it ever happens again plz do wat i did becoz she was scared. then i knew i did the right thing :)

my persistent mark in the core of my bones!

yesterday i wen gym n today i wen jogging n despite my best efforts i feel a meanningless action going on. in words i would say i'm exercising for better health? but in fact i jus do it to kill the time, however i'm also runing out of time n constantly racing with it. its in my nature to run from boring stuff or basically anything that is related to something i must do hahaha.... oh~ i'm soooo sooouuu screwed and yet~ i can't change ~.~"

ways for way

last resort

alot of ppl who couldn't decide on something might say "lets jus let fate decide" like me i'm a big big fan of fate but even so i jus can't sit n wait anymore. sometimes the greatest thing is right in front of u yet u choose not to see it becoz of uncertainty n doult. sometimes the greatest things in front of isnt that great after all. sometimes the worst thing in life is the unstopable time and yet good times is greatest to you. sometimes by leting go u get to take more.

i duno if my actions will bring me fortune or sadness. but it sure feels good not leting fate do all the work onces in a while =) i'm sry for all the wrongs i did in the past but my decisions are final. (i'm done waiting)

Birthday =D

hahaha its kinda late that i post this now, anyways tell u guys about my bday! first i got alot of smss wishing me more then last year coz i kept the 1 last year lol haha then dad wished me, but mom forgot! nvm coz she said sorry n got me a laptop muwahahhaa! i also had a blast with my friends this r the pics that i hav with some of my friends celebrating my bday for me, thank you~! look down


this is me, mayjean,wueiging,liping,weijun in my house celebrating for me they buy lots of different cakes n we try them all. also got a present n i bet the present was weijuns idea thank you


next is me n my primary school friends! amazing we r still close n they took me to midvelly to celebrate a few days b4 they took me out we also wen up a hill at night n had a great time screaming all kinda stuff. thanks wei~


this is my sister n her bf she came back from singapore that week end i like to tink that it was for me =D truth is i'm not sure however she spended most of her time with me also saturday with me n my mom at korea BBQ


sunday with me n my dad at a place called the SHIP which inside looks like a inside of the ship n the ppl there r in sailor uniforms kekekkee


this is my this year laptop present from mom and down is a present from dad few years ago i connect them n puff my room has a mini theater~!


this is a interesting t-shirt sister gave me for my bday its a sight for sore eyes!


and this is my god sister's present for me it looks like a bread smells like a bread but its not a bread its a hand rest! haha thanks


i also hav all kinds of event going on for this month like going to singapore sentosa n all that, friends r something magical to hav i hope everything will value their friends as much as i value mine =)





yah all and all i had a great great month of celebration thank every1! n all tat celebrated with me n wished me which i didn't mention in this post thank you all!!!

dam bored~ Lets talk about girls O.O" wats love?

I would prefer no ladies would read this hahaha~

what is a girl to me, a girl is a guy that is not a guy but a girl, in other words both humans both could act the same jus biologicaly different~ its crazy that the fact guys and girls are to be made a pair, coz tat fact lead guys to do really interesting things. if your a guy u know how it feels to go crazy over a girl rite? but if according to my theory above it would mean that we go for girls jus for their biological differents O.O otherwise we would b going after guys as well =P

CHILL!! althou guys n girls can hav the same personalities or characteristics but in truth majority speaking they are different~! so much for my first statement(i added this so i dun scare myself) i would say girls are more caring acctually, guys are more compatitive. and also i feel that girls can always easily be sweet, how to say ar like imagin ur sad n a girl comes n give u a warm hug, now imagin ur sad a guys gives u a warm hug.(wrong choice of puting the warm if ur a guy)doesn't matter if ur a kid,grownup n doesn't matter male or female. it would seem that a girls hug is more loving.


lately a friend asked me about the sensitive issue "sex" but at a point of a mature thinking u will find that, holding hands between a guy and a girl is like special ehem when ur like 10 years old. then after that mayb holding hands is normal to u then u feel that a kiss is magical when ur around 15 years old but later u've kiss so much u feel that its jus something command between a couple. so for now sex is something wow.... i myself still virgin very shy now~ but 10years from now sex might no longer bring a strong meaning.
i've tot about this wen i was very young~ and the reason i do not feel comfirtable dating is also becoz i dun wan my kiss, my touch, and erm wat ever u call that to feel meanningless. jus waiting for the rite one ;)


okie since the topic is about girls must say something bad about them, girls can b bossy, complain alot!!, and never satisfied!!!!!
jus to b fair i talk bad about guys also... guys need to b more sensitive and listens to wat the girl is saying and once together dun always keep problems or feelings to urself coz at the end it will blow and ur girl is going to leave u =P


Love is suspicious, love is needy and love is greedy! there is no great love with out great jealousy =)

Gaming ain't everything but it feels much more!

YES gaming isn't everything! however for those who dun get wats so nice about gaming is that ... depending on the game, it could take us to an unbelievable place. its like living a world far different from now.. having superpowers n plan ur finances. basically its like living a life thats much more then wat we hav. this is very adictive~! and to me wat makes the game nice will relay on the background music as much as the user friendly interface. if i hav to make a comparisome i'll say its like watching anime~ once u start, ur in to it, u know all about it, u dunno wanna leave it, u feel that its apart of u and u end up watching it non stop til its finished then u feel sad coz its like part of ur life jus stoped. for gaming it stoped when u dun get to play.(but finally its still jus a fantasy)

HOWEVER theres a group of ppl which is very focus in the real world that they won find gaming or anime interesting like my sister which is a very good thing~! i could spend half or more then half my day playing games if i keep this up i can easily lose half my life. SO plan ur time well guys =D

emo

I'm a guy that emos alot, hate to admit it but if you know me from msn u might oready realize i can't stand late replies same goes for sms. cause to me late reply is like showing that your not important, they think of u later, they r lazy to reply, they dun like you, and all the other negative stuff. hahaha problem is no matter how busy i am i will try my best to reply quick as long as i'm there i will reply! i will stop everything n REPLY! which kinda makes me more emo when ppl reply slow then i also thinking y i bother reply n wait there jus in case =(

ahhh lately i found out i'm not the only 1 some 1 else face the same problem which is kinda weird coz its my friend n wat happen was i think i jus think something happen one of us replied slow and then puff emo~ so one of use thinks that the other dun care so also reply slow then the other also slow then slow n very slow n yah u get the picture. althou sometimes it can't b helped when ur busy so best part about me is i forgot stuff also one of my worst part. good coz i forget the bad stuff ppl do to me also forgets who did it n bad coz i might also forget their name n birthday, which btw mine is coming soon! n it really kills me that ppl remembers my birthday n i dun remember theirs, n also its not fair coz my birthday kinda easy to remember so it would always seem that i dun care about others which i dooooo! as long as i remember their name means i do lol coz not familiar ppl i won even remember the name but i make up stuff to try n remember them like 1 guy called ermmm moon bear and 1 more girl call round ice hahhha they will know its them if they read this.

yup i think i type too much and no 1 like to too many words in their day so i'll stop here... bottom line... i'm a sensitive person.... Emo-ing

Facebook vs blog

Now days i realize people like to play facebook, i know coz my sister is really active in it haha some how i dun see the fun... care to educate me? blogs r geting old .... dun even thing any1 reads my blog other then a few primary school friends ;)

facebook i tried it b4 with another email account which no1 really knows hahah is my first 1 btw and i was geting the hang of it n acctually interested in this game called "who has the bigest brain" or something like that hahaha i wanna get a big brain so i keep playing, can win my sister thou her score crazy high i think they played it in a group so its cheating >p

i haven tried other games, junho my primary school mate seemed to b adicted to poker i think he keeps asking me to play~! but i dunno how!! i go in n stright away i lost 4coins. theres other stuff too like somekinda superpower game which i got super speed =D , bowling?, n other stuff which i haven try. not really planing to try hahaha

acctualy i made an account to view a friend's picture hahaha end up liking it then now can say quitingish << dunno wats that either. coz of this person that dun wan this other person to add that person so that person dun let me do stuff in the facebook which at the end i dun bother loging on to >.>'

luckily i'm quite sure that person dun read my blog so i guess that person won't know how i feel :( sometimes in life the little things countssssss! ahhh stress must study but like no motive n to do something with out motive is like to dig ur nose for no reason :S very weird feeling... facebook or blog hmmm i think i'll stick with both, both for now.

its like so weird if parents reads our blogs~! i can't imagin that fact its creepy

oh no.... less then a week til my semester exam... i really dun wanna fail but i hav no motive wat so ever to study nth in geting in i dunno wat to do... help plz some1 give me a reason to do this.

but it can't b jus any simple reason it has to b something that i believe in otherwise it wouldn't work. on top of everything i contantly ask my self rather i should change course or not. this coz me to even feel like not studying.

i dun wanna do bad but i can't do good, i'm out of ideas i can't do something that does not statisfy my heart

The things i like !

hmmmm computer games! but time consuming :(
i use to think having a TV is the best part of life :P coz last time got astro maaaa sooo freaking many channels surely theres something i would like haha favorite channel DISCOVERY! hahaha but now no more :(
A good MEAL! can't really seem to get fat no matter how much i eat must b my ability to process, pack and unlish food quickly, but wat ever thats nice normaly isn't good 4 my body :(
Now i think i might like hanging out with a my girlfriend if i had 1, and share alittle skin ship hohoho :( but girl maintenance fee very high
i guess i like staying at home sleeping coz not only i get to do all those things in Lala land but i also conserve energy and best of all i feel that there is where i belong... hehhehehe

A reason i've found

Off and on i acctually get emotional and sad which cause me to become kinda quiet. Ever meet some1 that could only do something if they have a reason or motive? sadly i'm one of them and the reason or motive i lack is in life. i hav no idea wat so ever why on earth i live, without this important answer in my life everything i do seems meaningless.

But i guess there is no meaning if i only live for myself, i find it a better reason to live for others. Not really a good thing for me but atleast maybe jus maybe i could give a reason for others.

Even so, i'm not doin too good myself hahaha too lazy to study or do anything that is beneficial to ME Buuuhuuuu =(

the will to go on

helo~~ long time since i wrote something huh... well some friends acctually read my post n hoped i'll write again, so i took sometime to do this =) todays topic~ famous yet challenging! whats life all about ;) now if ur religious most likely u aledi hav an answer that u could accept but reminding u some ppl are still not quite satisfied with the answer at hand. bet most of u guys watched matrix XD bullets flying n all that COMEE ONnn no way u could hav missed it, if u guys recall it was said in the first episode movie that if something real is something that u can see hear touch n smell then they r no more then impulses to ur brain.
not trying to b negative but history is only the way it is to us depending on how the writer wrote it, in other words whos to say the bible is real. super sorry haha but i'm like some of them out there which can't really belif wats not proven. so if not mistaken life to the bible is eternity if every1 had to die n not resurrected its kinda pointless >.> tell u the truth i wouldn't really wanna live forever wouldnt know wat to do =P anyways with this some ppl living their life hoping for the day of judgement or be good to go to heaven or die n live as human again or wat ever that u can think of... now imagin u dun hav any bible or elders to tell u wats life after death, then tell me why do we live. now now if u look at animals they live to multiply so that their kind dun dissapear hahaha but it would seem that thats their only goal in life, so are we the same? hehehe think about give commands mayb i'll post something again and btw i'm not religious i myself is a christian and i also quite belif in god =) besides somethings its better to believe then not to believe.... time to sleeppppppppp~!

what to do...

some times in life u gain enemies, some times in life u meet ppl that dislikes u for no reason. wat to doooooo.... well i could imagin how scarry tat is! i mean its like imagin ur badly scar-ed all over u look like ghost n no1 wans u around u hav no friends n its not ur foult ppl dun like u! bcoz of this i will not run from ppl like that i will b their friends! i must give them hope n b there for them coz its jus the rite thing to do.. but sometimes i meet some 1 that has a reason for why others might not like him/her i dunno rather to help or to stay away. in a way its totally non of my buisness i could really get in trouble if i give my oppinion, but then again if i don they won know how much they might b losing out mayb losing out on friends, trust within ppl or even love.its like two pool both with sharks, 1 pool is dirty but not deadly n another is clean(healthy). so question should i help the sharks in the dirty pool over to the clean pool but risk geting eatten or should i jus let it be... sometimes doin a good thing isn't right n some times doin the bad thing isn't wrong!

the things that matters the most

bet most of u heard of the phase "sometimes the things most dear to u is there right infront of u" in a way its true~ automaticaly if u hav something u treasure u would b facing it more often wouldn't u? but i did something pretty dumb, i found that thing yet i refuse to accept it. mayb thats the reason i dun hav a best friend,dun get me wrong every1 is a very good friend to me but no best...
it was soon i came to realize that i had been dissapointed way too many times, for instants of all the relationships i've been in never really worked out, when i was first introduce to online games i could see many scamers, many things i've tried doing didn't turn out the way it should, i've met ppl that couldn't careless n would put me in harms way to get wat they wan, also ppl that is so unreasonable and totaly hardheaded that i could drop dead jus by trying to get a simple fact into them. there is so many painful times which ultimately shaped my heart into wat it is now.
my heart is now something secluded, a wall around it was formed to protect myself from all this but at the sametime abandoning any hope of true happiness from ever entering. This is me.. a person that quits the moment something sounds too good to b true comes along....... what should i do....

Education VS Experince

Heres something to think about and also it would b helpful if u would leave a comment on this question ...eto.. ok the question is~! if ur a big boss who would u employ to work with u some1 thats very experince or some1 with a degree or PHD. would u want that person to b good at the job or smart for the job.

example any experince worker knows how things is done they could do it nicely n well for u. they could also do it faster n better.
a educated person however might know how things should b done but doing it is something else they might b slow n not done well, but any unexpected problems could b solved easily since they hav enuf wisdom to overcome it. however an experince worker might not know wat to do if something new comes a long.... so which is better?

few days ago, my sister and i wen out together... well acctually she had an interview and i'm suppose to b the good brother to keep her company n protect her hohoho~ >.<" anyways then i was thinking who would i employ n wat person would it b... and pop! this question came along. theres also street smart n books smart to think about but right now to me i think an experince worker is better coz i've witness some1 tat has no education but did a great job at my work place even thou his newer then me T.T" really made me look bad but his ways of words with the customer made him look like he knows wat his doing n he cannot possibly go wrong! amazing~ well of course his 10years older then me haha. tell me wat u think

The day i ran away

picture a morning forest still full with haze, every step forword brings unexpected surprice. your spine got stiff as the sounds of owls, wolfs, frogs and crickets from every coner all around you as if being watch and laughed at. then u feel so tired you can't walk anymore and without knowing where you are you lost all hope even survival itself. but after awhile the sun pulled the haze up and light your path but it was a road that you have no idea where it leads to.... but all could be done is to follow it

Thats how i feel every morning after every dream either a nightmare or fantasy i'll always wake up lost, wondering why am i here and what am i doing..... always hoping for a someone to pull me out of the haze and show me where my road leads to. someone that will be at the end of that road waiting for me.

mysterious dreams

for many months now every single day i go to bed i'm sure i had a dream... ain't good coz i always apear tired... and i am... dreaming is something magical sometimes, its the only time the imposible could happen... truth to be told i love sleeping! how ever theres once i had a weird dream... i was making out with this girl(ya ya making out nth else jus the lips dun think too far) she was my friend! we were jus friends but in that dream we were something more... worst part was i couldnt forget it n to make matters worst i had a crash on my friend in the dream >.<" ahhhhhh the horror couldn't look at her the same any more hahaha

the worst was the time i dreamt that i was having a party with my friends in a car park >.> soon later for some unknown reason i knew that my dad was out side the condo car park waiting for me. as i walk out to go home coz my day was very angry for no reason also hahaha i saw up at one of the condo's window a kid no older then 4 years old was hanging out of the window! i was like nuuuuuuu plz go back in.... next thing u know that boy fell~ suddenly time felt like it stoped as i could see every sec clearly of how his falling ... automatically i rush to catch him... when he came down to my level my finger tips touched his body n didn't manage to catch him my mind was going nuts knowning the out come as my eyes shut tight n my arms n shoulders kinda jumped as i heard the splashing sound the little kid made when he hit the road floor when i opened my eyes his head was dislocated n didn't know the danger the kid had a smile on his face! THATS WHEN I WOKE UP n shiver as i sms my friend in the dark coz all i wan is not to b alone that time =.="

all the weird dreams leat me tired n even GRAMPY sometimes can't even face my friends haha... not to mention it makes my nose hair n white hair grows faster it also comes with pimples not on the hair but on my face duh~ yah... thats all for now ^^ to who that might read this.. give me a hug when u see me unless ur a guy ... fat guy or....fat girl... u know wat dun hug me let me die in peace

if i could have a peny for everytime i regret doin something i would really need to find a place to keep all my pennies. i grew up hating this feeling of regret soo much that i push every nice thing that could happen to me away jus so i dun feel dissapointed is anything bad happens. i tried not to get involve in almost everything so much that i've even become alittle social outcast or i try so hard to fit in i make a fool of myself over jokes which only i think is funny, it was later on that i realize that ppl hav to get the joke too. i guess in a way i've turn to joking as something i do to mix around after all everybody could use a good laugh. trust me when i say>> "bad things happen to he who tries too hard" my mind become fix on thinking of jokes so much i couldn't b serious unless u poke me in the wrong places if u know wat i mean.

now lets see, i'm negative erm kinda anti social and not serious, very bad with words, makes jokes that ppl dun get.... so why is it that ppl dun like me again? to all my friends n every 1 that knows me, wanna tell u guys something which is "i'm still trying to be a better man!" now how that turns out will also depends on u guys ^^

For now =)

this might b my last post for along time, basically i can't do this forever. i'm not much a sharing person but hey it was fun while it lasted. what could i say about ^^ hmmm so far i think less then 7 ppl acctualy know my blog exsisted, most guys won't bother to even look i mean come on guy see guys blog it wrong~! hahaha many comments n stuff i get mostly from girls thanks so much! tiffany my penang pal know u since hmmmm 5? 6 years ago? amazing we never meet but we r still great friends. wuei ging a girl that some how always manage to sit beside me in class for the pas few years well almost always. then theres keryi this girl is something special hard to say but every1 wanna b like her. regina, primary school friend wasn't as close to her then but i think we r geting somewhere now, still wish we can hang out more often and i hav to say u can really play a bluff game all the way~.~'. sarah old school mate fly to usa and never visit me, but still shes like a virtual friend online every lunch time n bed time. Jason Hew! cutest guy i know haha i hope being cute could win over girls coz if it does u'll hav a mob of girls aledi!jiayi and jialin old buddies, miss going to ur house every saturday n jus watch tv together haha. LekKA, my goodness u hav more in u then u think, if a guy like u hav problems geting girls ppl like me hav no hope at all hahaha super funny guy. weijun read read read study study read is tat all u do? even worked at MPH! u r soooooo going to get ur very own thinker statue. liping, so small so cute and so innocent i don't even dare for one second lay 1 finger on u haha but i wouldn't basically i can't think dirty with u around~. michelle choo, hmm very sry i can't make it the other day wen u asked me out but hey ur turning into a anime freak too yay our gang is geting big but thennn am i the only guy in the gang? hoaykeat, i know u dun mean bad n stuff but some1 tells me u weren't being very nice when u talk, i'm sure u didn't mean it so jus watch out wat u say that might hurt sensitive ppl, other then tat ur great too. anwar! him n jiayi were my best buds can't say the same now but he is one malay dude that i seriously like! come play more often yah?! ally, amazing girl can mix with almost any mob i know very nice and if it wasn't for her i would hav been really bored at genting that day she was the only 1 that company me all the way, n remember that time we cooked at eunice place haha that was fun thanks. chongpeng and sengyu a.k.a burger and hot dog to me haha always a pair 2 guys walking ard freaks me out!! but hey wat ever makes u happy =P shuan, now dun wanna b rude infront of all this ppl (ehem 1 or 2 ppl that acctaully reads this blog) but work on ur talking skills coz man i know u never meant to b bad but the way u talk kills and i mean tat in a bad way, hav to seriously change, if not u'll hav trouble even keeping the friends u aledi hav, ur a great guy thou remember dun swear! elaine, jingyan, carmen, shuyi, wanzhen,waiyee and all the chinese speaking friends! nice to hav u, i enjoy speaking chinese with u all if not for u guys i would hav seriously forgot how to speak chinese. sherman tan, his brain can really twist n turn very good at joking and his smart too! john, my age john haha i like ur house wei~ bathroom also got tree i envy that! n ur big tv oh my god! ur also a great guitar player i'll need free lesson from u too. huiyi , did any 1 tell u u walk like a guy? dun get me wrong i think its really cool so cool that i wanna walk like u hahaha hey dun stay up too late k? andrea, currently at aus i love the way u talk! its new n different hope it wouldn't change. mayjean, very pretty girl hor dun playplay shes nice also but can't help to feel that something is bothering her, a great friend althou different school but shes always around. yoongkhang and junhoh good luck in form 6 tell me how it turns out. chentseng i duno why but everytime i see u i feel that ur soo stress chil man, if i must i will personally unstress u hahaha that sounded like undress. denise, wao tall sweet and sexy hahaha hope u got the cubebox thinggy done by now, i think ur interesting coz u wish to learn about how others feel, that is something i dun really see often in a person. jiehan, i dunno i should ask u to eat more or stop eating coz ur really thin but u mustn't grow anymore! hmmm wonder how u look like if u happen to take drugs hohoho but still ur kind tall dude take care! kimberlee, met her at johns birthday party, first girl that was daring enuf to pull me out to dance, and also thanks for the invite to ur party too. Kong, you ar always wanna have fun dun even care wat will happen hahaha but ur need for trial really amaz me! Yue Chiang or siu kiong he's very friendly person even gay hug me a few times some how i dun mind HAHHAHAHA ehem but seriously this dude is not made for fighting he is 1 guy u can't stay mad at. Awwww i hope the ppl that i didn't mention wouldn't mind but i'm really bad in names so either i can't spell it or i can't remember it kekeke and too all the girls that i wasn't nice with or that i've hurted b4 hav a news for u... i'm hurting now too..... so lets call it even? thanks for everything every1!! i also like to thank my parents n my sister, oh and if i hav a wish yah yah world peace! KIT, TK, GL,HF, SM hmmmmm wonder whos dumb enuf to read the whole thing muwahahaha~

what i want and what i need..

what i want.... since when does anyone even hav a clue of wat they want? up til now i hav no idea wat i wan, so what i do is i find out what ppl want n ask my self would i wan it hahaha however wat i need is clear. i need FOOD, lots of SLEEP, more FOOD, hav FUN, MONEY to buy FOOD and a place to stay so that i can store my FOOD. friends n family is something i would want but wat i need is their love!

kids hav the purest of hearts how do i know? duh~ i was one still am! However i came to realize it when i was working at this primary school. alot of the strd1 kids r crying becoz its their first day~(wak~~ mamy dun wan me aledi) i was actually holding back not to slap them up jus then i saw something magical the strd5 & 6 came by and confort them, taping thier backs, holding them. so kind n gentle... thou my mind was wondering "would u hold me too?" haha friendship when we r kids r the greatest, becoz as we grow up we learn about the importants of money,how others can't b trusted,anger,hate and we always wan something in return. tell u the truth i dun trust ppl either blek~ but when i look at the kids playing i wanna b their friend very much... awwwwwwww thats wat i want