Blood still FreaKs me out

Today i wen for a blood donation, they hav a very catchy phrase that cought my attetion "a bag of full, truthly helpful" and i've always wanted to save the world i guess its 1 life at a time for now =)

even thou i'm a guy, that freakin niddle is still seem so freakin big to me! i dare not watch as the nurse STAB me! but the ppl there n atmosphere was great, wen u go in that hall, that bloody bloody hall, that scarry blooodie... i mean that wonderful holy hall u feel something wen u look at the ppl ard you, THAT THERE ARE STILL MANY KIND PPL ALIVE! thanks for the experince =D oh btw we get alot of free stuff n sign our names on this board to indicate our heroic efforts =P

I WAn To Stay NeAr the CoLlege T.T

traveling 3 hours a day every school day which is almost every day is very sickening. serious the first few weeks i could almost feel my self throwing up(vomit). but reality smack me hard on the butt telling me this is wat i hav to do this is LIFE! oh god~

lets play with a little mathe shall we :) 1 day 3 hours gone last sem was 6days a week that will b 18 hours gone. in a month that will be 72hours gone! means for every month i lose 3 days~! in a year i lose 36 days! so its as if i hav only 11 months in my year ~.~" but lucky this sem onli 5days aweek but it still sucks =/

Its not easy...

in college rite now at the moment i was voted to b my robotics group(11ppl) leader. kinda scarry considering there r elder ppl in my group its like u can't boss them around coz they will feel angry taking orders from some younger kid. i was hoping that by picking me as the leader they should believe in the decisions i make. but to b fair i let every 1 voice out oppinions. but sadly alot don't really care they dunno wats going on they dun bother to find out.

i dun like leading never did. coz first rule of leadership everything is my foult. again i'm not good with groups and i'm pretty bad comunicating so i'm jus starting to fit in. no 1 likes a bossy person which i need to b. i'm also living super far from college n every 1 else. the day i did came for class was the day they voted me leader =/ i didn't even know wat r we suppose to do T.T"

rite now there are idealist in my group which wan things their way and after reviewing i feel that theres parts which is going to b hard to do n will cause problems but it doesn't seem like they will take no for an answer. but there are some ppl there which r very kind n helpful thank god :) so far we only had to do a proposal, prototype, a rough sketch design. starting wen every 1 still don seem to care about it i had to do the proposal n design my self to hand in some did help but 80% of it i had to do by my self :(

some complication did occur aswell but hopefully its nth we can't handle jus hope for a little respact here n there. most helpful members in clude nick, alex, wan tong, jeff others plz show me wat u can do! oh btw we r building a simple robot

what happen the other day~

once again the week is ending and i'm out with friends~ well was going to b out with friendS but one of them couldn't make it n end up going out with jus a friend(female). after a night of chating while eating at a mamak place a few guys came by they are all my ex school mates and they all know my friend. i am never good in a group conversation but i tried to fit in haha didn't work ended up being quiet listening. so its geting late n me n my friend wanna go home edi and so did the group of guys.

one of them suggest we let him walk home n get his car n drive us back but actualy men my friend's house is of walking distance. i said i'll walk her back n if they meet us there they can send me back coz mayb walking might b faster. so it was me n her plus one of the guys which seemed to b interested in her, we walk down the dark road while chating then the guys with the car came by. instead of driving my friend back jus the other half the driver made a long round turning n said he wanna drop me off first. i was worried for my friend so i insisted that he drop her first.

in the car was me 3 other guys n her if i go down it would onli b 3 guys n her in a car. my friend she also said that she would like to go back first. but the guys n the driver did not listen they keep driving to the road directing to my house so i said once more to him to drop my friend first then he replied WHY? i told him in a joking way that i can't sleep if i dun see her off. then he say i dun wan u to sleep then he drove all the way to my house reached at my house i said i'm not geting off until u drive her back. i think my friend was also scared n she said nvm she'll walk then only the guy reacted n say fine n drove her back.

i'm friendly at times but can b scarry sometimes. coz the girl was there i tired to b calm with them, after she left i asked the driver why so degil? the guy didn't reply n jus drove me back. i said thanks n i left. the word got out to another friend she said that i was too protective and reminded me that i'm not her bf or anything then i felt as if i did something wrong. but my friend the girl in the car she sms me later saying thanks and ask me if it ever happens again plz do wat i did becoz she was scared. then i knew i did the right thing :)