the things that matters the most

bet most of u heard of the phase "sometimes the things most dear to u is there right infront of u" in a way its true~ automaticaly if u hav something u treasure u would b facing it more often wouldn't u? but i did something pretty dumb, i found that thing yet i refuse to accept it. mayb thats the reason i dun hav a best friend,dun get me wrong every1 is a very good friend to me but no best...
it was soon i came to realize that i had been dissapointed way too many times, for instants of all the relationships i've been in never really worked out, when i was first introduce to online games i could see many scamers, many things i've tried doing didn't turn out the way it should, i've met ppl that couldn't careless n would put me in harms way to get wat they wan, also ppl that is so unreasonable and totaly hardheaded that i could drop dead jus by trying to get a simple fact into them. there is so many painful times which ultimately shaped my heart into wat it is now.
my heart is now something secluded, a wall around it was formed to protect myself from all this but at the sametime abandoning any hope of true happiness from ever entering. This is me.. a person that quits the moment something sounds too good to b true comes along....... what should i do....